I never keep track of the resolutions i made through the years but is till like to make them . Having them made me feel like i am making efforts to move forward to new year with an improved self.

2012 Resolution:

PRIORITY: MAKING BABIES

1. Keeping a balance at work and knock off on time.
Will ask if i can change my working hours to start early at 830 and leave 6. Be more organized and on top of things during work so that I will not feel like work is endless. Be more focus and specialize in certain areas and also be more forthright in saying no when i needed to.

2. Exercise regularly
Keep a discipline of doing yoga on monday, wednesday/saturday morning, swim once every weekend, visit the nature or forest every once a month.

3. Eat regularly and ensure that I have lunch and dinner. Try to have dinner early before 8. If that is not possible, have light meals when i am back.

3. Be discipline in daily devotionals and also walk with the lord'
Set aside a short 15 minute devotion and also a 30 minute devotion in the evening with the lord. Pray with hubby together at night( so hard to keep up with this even though we attempt to)

4. Try to be early for church service every sunday and also keep up with attendance when I am serving at Sunday school. Make cell group a Friday Priority and take more active role in leading worship of bible study

5. Have dinner with in-laws and father/brother at least once a week

Durian puff speaks

Slowing down is good. You can hear god's voice better. After lunch at Aston at Katong on Friday, we popped by a shop that sells durians puff. Mumsie Kitchen is the name and apparently is opened by Christians who have openly given god the glory by printing the verse " Seek the kingdom of god's first and all thing shall be added onto you," Matthew 5;33. onto its packaging.

Just last Sunday, Pastor Edmund, after being back from his sabattical , gave a profound sermon on going back to Fundemental Christianity, meaning to restore our relationship with God, knowing what he is like above anything else ( your ministry, your works,etc). He again preached on Matt 5:33 and challenged us to think about the priorities we have placed in our life and if we could seek him with all our heart and be passionate about it. More often than not, he mentioned that how we spent our money , time and effort would be where our priorities are. He also convicted us not to be Cultural Christians. There are three types of cultural christians:
1) Sunday CHristians who just come to church on Sunday but have no relationship with god during the week
2)Christians who are passionate about church activities, serve this and participate actively in cell group but do not apply the values in their daily living

His sermon reminded me of the verse on the durian puff packaging. " Seek his kingdom first and all things shall be added onto you" Have I been diligently spending my time to know my abba father? Have i been making a deliberate effort to seek him in all that I do and where I should go ? Did I trust him with all my heart and soul about my heart desires that he will provide in his due timing ? Do I trust that when he said " is finished", all of my sins are forgiven and that I should rely on his strength and not mine?

Ramdom thoughts

I often will like to think myself as a very reflective person, constantly thinking about the things that are happening around me. I like to think and think and think..sometimes i felt my head maybe bursting with ideas and thoughts throughout the whole day. Since work has becoming a little hectic, it has been hard for me to pen it down as well.

I will like to commit myself to start putting little messages for my time spend with the lord over at this space again.

You know, the one where He calls us to an assignment and instructs us to head out, not knowing where we're going (Heb. 11:8).I like to think god always has a plan for me and hubs especially as we journey our path in seeking his purpose in our lives. Sometimes like what the author has mentioned, it may take a while to understand that the lord is taking us to greater heights or territories.while the journey maybe a bit bumpy, unclear ,challenging, i must rest in him to know that he will guide us.

Remember when Joshua entered into the Promised Land, and he had to fight battles to gain what God promised him and his people? Joshua had to depend upon God for every unique strategy for victory along the way (Joshua 5:14). So too must we. This is the key to a success that is greater than we can achieve on our own.

Sometimes, I tend to whine about what i am missing out in life.Being a mother, having a house of my own Sometimes, i think i need to remind myself about what i have in my life. Nice family support, nice in-laws, a good maid and husband, supportive colleagues, a job which I am learning and growing in it.

I pray that my life can be a constant support to my love ones, first to my husband,next to my children to be and thirdly to my father,brother and in-laws to come. NOt forgetting those who has treasured and love me .

Love Singapore 2009

Just finished my 30 minute prayer for lovesingapore. Love the song in the site. Love this whole idea of corporate prayer as all churches come together and united as one to pray for our nation and pre-believers. Decide that I will continue to make it a point to include the prayerbuzz points stated in the site in my prayer life.

Quarter 2009 reflection

I could not believe time has passed so quickly. A quarter of 2009 has passed.
My first quarter of 2009 has been pretty swarmed up in adjusting to a new role in a new organisation.A very steep learning curve with many challenging and interesting experiences to learn. One good thing about choosing a role beyond the classroom allows me to see how education itself can be a profit enterprise at a managment level.Fundementally, there must be some bottom line figures to drive all those operational costs in the school. It widens my perspective at how school operations can operate like any other commercial enterprise, hones my skills in managing people and balancing interests and expectations of bosses and peers.Something you will not get when you are just a teacher in the classroom.

I guess life has just been too much in comfort zone for the past few years. This role bears much accountability and responsibility that I need to take a change in my gears and face the true reality of life. Or probably all this while, I am just in my own little idealistic world, waiting to grow up.

Being a leader isn't easy. More so when you are in the middle management,taking orders from levels above and communicate to those that are in the ground. I take it as an opportunity which god has provided me to mould my character. Over the past few months, I saw myself constantly facing many dilemas and stumbling blocks when changes needed to be executed.Each breakdown pushes me to turn to the lord and draw upon his strength.While devil tries to put much negative thoughts in me , I realise the more i resist and rely on my strength to overcome, the more I am sucked in to this whole wave of worry and anxiety.People Politics.Man.Messy. Looking back, is pretty scary how you can be wallow in your own troubles and that your whole life centers around work and nothing else. Day and night,nothing but work. No workout, no socialisation,no grooming, no meals.Terrible.

Balancing life and work truely is not easy. But I realise how you can achieve that when you focus on the lord. Peace and joy flows through him. The holy spririt reveals to you bigger things and bigger perspectives. The holy spirit tells you to cast all your burdens on him and that the battle is of the lord and not yours. You learn to let go ,slowly and increasingly. Painful,not easy.However at the end of the day, when you triumphant over eveything, you know your lord has been with you all this while and that you would not have walk through it without HIM.

Things to be thankful despite the terrible working conditions.My in-laws who have been ever so supportive with all their good meals ,listening ears to my rantings, bearing with my sulky faces everyday. My beloved husband who has his own share of worries and burdens but trying his best to make me happy, his daily chauffering to and fro the work place.Finally, my own realization of how hard and harsh BB's work can be in the finance sector and reminder for myself to be more patient and gentle with him. In terms of work, i am thankful for lessons learnt to be a better leader. I think one needs to be able to clearly define the mission and vision of the organisation and communicate to his people. A leader needs to be confident, level headed, organised, have integrity, ready to take blame and shield whatever went wrong, caring and respecful to his people.

Well I am glad is all over and ready to move on to greener pastures.The rest of 2009 will continue to be challenging in this economic downturn but I know I have a god who is bigger than all these. Staying faithful and trusting his providence in my life.Somethings I want to get it going in other areas of my life in the next quarter.

1. Start serving in a ministry /find a cellgroup to join for married couples
2. Sign up for yoga lesson once a week
3. Start some teaching lessons in RC with my cousin.

A quiet heart needs moulding

"Determining the right time to wean depends on the child and the parent but when the time comes, weaning involves withholding from the child what he wants, but no longer needs. God often withholds things we want but do not need, in order to change our appetites. This is not meant to inflict anxiety or pain, but to mature us and prepare us for the next level in our walk with Him. Too often we want life to be easy and comfortable. We don’t want to grow up and face responsibilities. But that would lead to stunted development. We forget that growth and maturity are almost always forged through some type of hard work or difficultly." quoted from (Olsen, Rachel Proverbs 31 Ministry,14 November )

Redeemer

A powerful and inspirational song by Nicole Mullen that always stirred up my heart. Thank you god for creating who I am and redeeming all my sins on the cross.

True Discipleship Celebration

2 March 2008

I felt really lifted up when we have the True Discipleship Celebration on the Sunday two weeks ago. It is a mid term progress celebration for all the four groups who have been doing the book on Gospel Transformation. A time to share testimonies and how the past half a year fellowship and exercises in the book have been withnessed in each other's life. It was great just seeing how everyone is lifted up by the studies. Great evening just immersing and spending time with these brothers and sisters in Christ even though there were tons of assignments undone yet.

We have become parents of...

Mr Sadam. Okies. I am not kidding. I forgot to blog about this on Christmas Eve because of all the shifting again. He is 10 years old from Uganda, a country in Africa which is severely impacted HIV/ AIDS. In his community, AIDs has wiped out the whole generation of hardworking adults.Frightened children and exhausted grandparents rarely have money for food,school or medical care.My Sadam is in primary school and he enjoys Math. He helps at home by carrying water and likes to play ball games. He lives with his grandmother, 1 brother and 2 sister and is in satisfactory health.The reason we choose Sadam is because he has only 2 more years to be sponsored. World vision has a rule that all children can be sponsored till they are 12 years old.We made a commitment of contributing US $40 dollars each month to help him gain access to basic needs and learn about God's unconditional love for him. Despite being financially unstable ourselves, we think that coming up with 40 dollars is still within our means.Come to think of it. If you set aside 10 dollars each week, cut down on your minature expenditure on earrings,games and food, this amount is enough to save these children in these countries. I therefore urge you to do the same.Please click on this link to

WORLDVISION

find out more information on child sponsorship. You can also write to your child and visit him if you want. One day,if is in HIS will, I will love to to go to Uganda to visit Sadam.
"For we are God's masterpiece.He has created us anew in Christ Jesus,so that we can do the good things he planned for us long ago." Ephesians 2:10 (NLT)