A 2011 thankful post

A thankful post

I should learn to give thanks . this year, i have not been much thankful about a lot of things happening in my life as I allowed myself to be overwhelmed by the huge workload at work. This also explained why my blog was silent for a while.

Yesterday, while i was doing my performance appraisal, i am thankful that through the process , i am able to reflect and evaluate what i had achieve over the past year. And boy, there were a lot of breakthroughs for me at workplace trying out new things, stepping out of my comfort zone and initiating new contacts and building on my expertise and having opportunities to where god wants me to focus my efforts and that is : special needs education. On top of that, i find myself being more resilient in stressful situations, being more convicted and and confident in expressing some of my views for certain issues and push forward certain staff. And for that, i thank god that he has given me strength to perserve , my hubby who tolerates and shares my frequent whines, my ever sweet, encouraging, understanding , supportive new boss, lynn and of course all the wonderful external professionals that I am working with this year.Without the opportunities given, i will not have grown so much professionally this year

I am thankful for my dad ,brother who were ever so understanding and understood that at times, i am so tired that I couldn't even bring myself to travel back and visit them.I would strive to reach a balance this year.

I am thankful for my wonderful cell group mates. what a year of change and also transitions
that all of us were facing . And despite our occasional frequent meet up due to babies and work, I am glad that we stood by each other and figure a way out to know one another better and also to be more accountable to one another in the lord's way

I am thankful for my friend , Hoon Lan who has been another pillar of strength and listening ear whenever i need one . I thank the lord that she is blessed with a little one next year and that she is able to cope with a demise of her love one this year with strength. I am also thankful that our husbands got to know one another better and that we have opportunities to hang around many times together in the year.

I am thankful for lord's spiritual food for me and provide opportunities for me to learn keyboard and spiritual worship at Believer music and also get to know some course mates who were an encouragement to me. I pray the lord will give me the discipline to continue to worship with him on that through music that will allow me to connect me more to him

And lastly, I am thankful that the lord gave me much strength to overcome the miscarriage that i have in the early part of this year . It took me a while and even now as I overcome the fears, the worries of getting conceiving again and ensuring that the baby is safe and healthy. I pray that he could contiinue to strengthen my faith and trust in his timing and continue to keep a joyful heart on this journey.

Beautiful Women

Is always good to have a fellowship group with women who were much more mature than you.Though they were way older than me but they were so young in heart!My beautiful Wednesday Woman's group especially Renee the cell leader, she is one woman whom I looked upon. Gentle in spirit, she almost fits perfectly to the Proverbs 31 Women.I learned so alot from her.

The Big Massacre

"In times like this, we can find comfort in the grace and guidance of a loving God," the president said. "As the Scriptures tell us, 'Don't be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good.'"


I was in the dark of this alarming news till I called back home to report safety to Dad.He asked me about this incident and he reminded both of us to be careful about such things happening around in the states.I soon got to know more about this from the news .This is probably one of the greatest breaking headliner after Anne Nicole Smith's case.

It doesn't matter where we are right?The world is just filled with so much evil things happening .Is true our world is filled with such evil things. We see increasing amount of war,strifles,diseases,indulgence ,self centredness in our increasingly intoxicated culture.Everybody wondered why a Korean student who is just 23 years old will do such a thing."He is sick, he is a loner,he is weird.." all those accusatory remarks...they are from the devil.

My heart reached out to those who died innocently in this gunfire.Their families.Their love ones.But my heart also reached out to Cho whose heart has been hardened by the devil,who wasn't able to receive help to get himself out of his loneliness, depression and bitterness in his heart.The devil has successfully conquered him.Cho's parents, god knows how hard they will take this incident upon themselves.The sadness,the guilt....

When tragedy like this occurs, sometimes people look to the Lord, and I pray that all will do so and find the comfort that only He can bring to their hearts," Page said in a statement to Baptist Press. "At the same time, Southern Baptists stand ready to help in any way that we can to assist and encourage these victims and their families. We are all shocked and horrified at this egregious expression of violence. Our prayers and love are with all those affected by this tragedy."

All i could to do was to keep all these people in prayers and of course,the world as a whole in prayers.Today, I reminded myself to grow even stronger in faith in times like this.The world is changing and probably degenerating but there will always be light and salt in the world to these darkness. i will be the light that shines and the salt that preserves. God, I prayed that your strength will be upon me and my family to resist all evil temptation and be a good comfort to the people around me.

Why does god allow evil things to happen in this world ? Human understanding is way to shallow to understand what is happening around. Only God the almighty knows.And we know and stand strong that he will save us and brought us eternal joy and peace in the time to come

Richard Land, president of the Ethics & Religious Liberty Commission, called the massacre "a brutal reminder that life is fragile and that evil exists in our world" and pointed to the hope found in Christ's resurrection during a time of intense trial.

New revelations from my heavenly father today ( Edited to be personalised for meditation):

2 Corinthians 5:17, “Therefore if anyone is in Christ, I am a new creature; the old things have passed away; behold, new things have come.” (NASB)


Colossians 3:10, “… put on the new self who is being renewed to a true knowledge, according to the image of the One who created me.” (NASB)

2 Corinthians 5:18-20: “The old life is gone; a new life burgeons! Look at it! All this comes from the God who settled the relationship between me and him … God has given me the task of telling everyone what he is doing. I am Christ's representatives.” (MSG)

Isaiah 43:19, “Behold, I will do something new; now it will spring forth; will you not be aware of it? I will even make a roadway in the wilderness, rivers in the desert.” (NASB)

Colossians 2:12, “For I was buried with Christ when I was baptized. And with him I was raised to new life because I trusted the mighty power of God, who raised Christ from the dead.” (NLT)

Happy New Year everyone!A blast to 2007 with a loud cheer!

I welcomed the new year in such a haste!We arrived at Heathrow back from Czec Republic after five days visit to my dear fren , slossy.( will write more about this later)

This year has been such a blessed year with so many adventures and learning expereinces. It went off so fast that I could not even remember.Several major decisions were being made and I could not imagine all these happening without the councel of my heavenly father.

From my early promotion in this year to my decision to tie the knot with BB ( small garden wedding soleminisation in the eyes of the lord) and thereafter quitting my job in mid year to join him in the states, my life has been a real roller coaster for 2006.Taking a leap in faith to trust that he will provide deepen my walk with him that i can rest in him and not worried about the future. He has been so awesome, his way of showing me that he has taken care of everything was beyond desciptions.

Many times this year, i am being challenged by him to learn to trust in him. Besides those i have mentioned, my doubts about my own capabilities to evangelise in Mongolia, to serve in the children ministry, he showed me that he will use the weak in his work as well. Nothing is impossible in his hands and he showed me how miraculously he works ( finding a job in london within such a short period of time)He provided me with the strength to withstand uncertainty and i am glad to know that we will be eventually settled in NYC for the next few years.

I am thankful for all the travel opportunities he provided. This year marked my highest record of travels to: Beijing, Mongolia,Belgium, France, Spain, Morroco, Czec Republic, UK . Many life expereinces learnt.Seem different cultures, way of lives , made new friends and realised how small the world is . The world itself in 2006 has been pretty unrestful and I prayed that the nations will conitnue to work towards peace and harmony. Less pollution and more countries to be more enviromental friendly.

With a new family set up, i also prayed that the lows and the toos will continue to be closely knitted. It will be harder for us to spend time with our families as we decided to spend a few more years overseas.And i prayed that god will show me how to be a good disciple,wife, daughter, daughter-in-law , sister and friend. It can be difficult at times to show how we care for each other when physical distances are limited and i need to trust him that he will keep our families and friends close and safe and healthy.

I prayed that i can continue to glorify him in his kingdom,in whatever way he wish to use me. I aim to keep a more regular bible study regime through personal quiet time and fellowships (BSF),couple prayers and continue to serve in Sunday School. I aim to pray more for others and establish deeper relationships.

I prayed that there will be favorable results in my grad school application and god will provide all finances for the studies.I pray that I will have a breakthrough in career through the studies and research.I also prayed that he will blessed me with a more stable teaching job in States for the next few years.

I prayed that BB will get settled in his new job with good colleagues and wonderful working environment. May he shine in his job with the blessings of the lord and not be swarmed by the competitive,cut throat banking industry. May his eyes be fixed on the lord and never be tempted by the worldly gains.May he has good health,energy and dote on me more.(hehe)May our chinese banquet held in June be a joyous celebration for all and may our marriage continue to filled with respect, patience, tolerance, support ,gentleness and most importantly to centre around the lord.

Lots of tears

last day at work today. Sudden surge of sentimental feelings. All those hugs and kisses from the fellow workers whom I never thought I have built close frenships with touched the little corner of my heart. Just wished I could stay on longer. Is always hard to move on when frenships have started to develop. But isn't that part and parcel of growing up? People come and go in your life . I treasure those who made effort to maintain the frenship and those who took time to care. Nothing matters more ,just to have a few who geuninely cares .

So now all ready to pack and go again. Flying back to States in three weeks time. I am not too sure if everything will be as beautiful as it is now. But I trust the lord to take care of them all. Surely, he will provide if we seekth his will. I know I can count on him for wisdom and strength. Am I ready for the jet set in one week's time? I think I am .But yet many things are running through my mind. I guess is coming to the end of another year. Time to reflect on what has been going on this year and the year coming ahead.

I am looking at the beautiful cards and letters I received from Aileen, Faye and Lilin. Beautifully created with love and their precious time.Those kind words and encourgement meant so much to me. I looked over and over again. Aren't I silly or not? Such simple stuff can really touch me and made me cry. I pray that god will bless them all, and all my friends back home in Singapore. I pray that they will be joyful in whatever they are doing.

And my family. Have conversation with TOO papa yesterday.He always had this way of expressing himself out of the blue which made me want to cry. He said" I am glad you are happy and doing well now." I want to cry again. The words are so simple but yet they came from someone who has raised me through these years and have no expectations of me returning anything at all. How awesome is that? Reminded me of Jesus's love ,his sacrificial love for all of us.

Dear Lord , I prayed that you will make me more like you and give more to others .Make me a good reflection of your ever kind,gentle,loving ,patient,giving and faithful nature. Amen.