A quiet heart needs moulding

"Determining the right time to wean depends on the child and the parent but when the time comes, weaning involves withholding from the child what he wants, but no longer needs. God often withholds things we want but do not need, in order to change our appetites. This is not meant to inflict anxiety or pain, but to mature us and prepare us for the next level in our walk with Him. Too often we want life to be easy and comfortable. We don’t want to grow up and face responsibilities. But that would lead to stunted development. We forget that growth and maturity are almost always forged through some type of hard work or difficultly." quoted from (Olsen, Rachel Proverbs 31 Ministry,14 November )

Redeemer

A powerful and inspirational song by Nicole Mullen that always stirred up my heart. Thank you god for creating who I am and redeeming all my sins on the cross.

I found my treasure:)

I suddenly felt like looking at my wedding pictures and I realised I lost my link. I decided to go to Nick's website to have a look at guess what,he put up out thank you card as the testimony and all my wedding pictures on his site!Opps.Well for those who have been wanting to have a look at my wedding pictures since like 1.5 years ago, here are there...enjoy..I miss being an excited bride.

Cultural Revolution ( Part 1)

A documentary film by Hu Jie about Bian Zhongyun, vice-principal of the Girls Middle School attached to Beijing Normal University, who was beaten to death by students early in the Cultural Revolution. Includes extensive commentary by her husband.
"Though I am gone"
Watch this when you are ready or in the day, I watched this at about 11pm and I went to sleep with a burden heart.
Asia Society

The 30s and 40s

I wanted to blog this down because I felt so loved by god!

I met a nice Singaporean family from my BSF group and this nice lady has been taking care of me like a mother. Just over the weekend, she knew that it was hard for me to travel around New Jersey without a car. She offered to bring me to the Chinese Supermarket, an international market and then we went to my favorite supermarket TRADER JOE to get groceries. She also wanted to pick me up after church every sunday because she knew how infrequent the bus was on Sunday and I always had to take two hours to travel back from church to home even though they were pretty near.Of course I kindly declined even though she kept insisting. We chatted for three hours, i felt so great!! I like to always hang around with older woman because I felt they were so wise and there were so much to learn from their experiences. Their stories encouraged me to become a more stronger and mature woman. Now I began to realise that I have this tendency to join the woman's group which was for the mid 30s and early 40s because I just like to hear and share how these woman balance family and work, serve their husbands,children and be committed in church and social activities.They are such caring,capable and positive women who are so zealous of life that I look upon them as mentor.Some things about these woman who are so mature and stable that I am find it very attractive..

Anyway back to this Nice Auntie ( I don;t like to use Auntie because she is not Auntie at all), upon hearing that I have a stomach flu yesterday and have been staying at home because I have been vomitting, guess what, she asked her daughther to drop me at an email to say that she had left a box of curry and the BSF notes in the conceige. When I went and picked up the stuff,my heart felt snuzzy wuzzy. I felt so loved with the box of cooked curry nicely wrapped in a plastic bag and the bsf notes carefully wrapped in a plastic sheet. You can feel how attentive her little nice gesture were. I sent an email to her daughter, ming , who by the way was one of my fellow colleague at Teachers College ( Is such a small world..really)to thank her so much.This family is so sweet. God really knows how to place the right people at the right time in my life when I need it. Knowing this family recently really made my move back to New Jersey much more comforting and heart-warming. I felt almost wanting to burst out into tears.HE really provides!

In addition, my lovely friend from school just dropped me a card before she left.
In the card,it said," Hello! how are you doing? Well I see you often in the class but never got to share, so I decided to write. haha How's everything? how's your family ? How's your place in NJ? Well just wanted to say" hi" Love you in Christ, K. Isn't that sweetest thing you can ever receive?????I really really really felt so loved by god and his people. Seriously, two people showed me their love when I felt so sucky these few days....oh my gowd! God love me so much!

And then, this morning, I told my good friend,S. in mid 30s and said I felt very blessed to know her and thank her for everything she has done for me. Yes, she has been superb in helping me sorting out some logistic stuff during this period of time. No complaints, always ready to help and yes, I feel that she is always so available when I need to talk. Gosh....can you believe a mother of 2 with work to juggle and making me feel like she is always there...isn't that incredible?? I think I really have to give her a big treat to her and another woman in her mid forties..hehhe ( whom I will reveal more when the time comes)If this thing ever fall through, I feel god really has a plan for everyone.

So all these 30s and 40s woman appearing in my life and us becoming good friends, I thought to myself: god is indeed good...HE is indeed preparing me for my next stage of life as I approached my 30 and starting to have my own children. He showed me good role models...role models that I always aspire for: To be always ready to serve,care and love and invest in people's life because you never know how your little gesture can be of help to someone.

Thank you my lord,in the midst of uncertainty, there is calmness, love, assurance and comfort from you whom I only know can provide so timely.

My Hubba Hubs....

If u believe it, this is my first time doing such test about BB....let me see how many did i strike?

1. He’s sitting in front of the TV, what is on the screen?
Soccer

2. You’re out to eat; what kind of dressing does he get on his salad?He eats salad more in the states or whenever when we are out eating angmoh food in Singapore which is rare. But if there is the occasion,Italian Vinegerette or Asian Sesame Dressing to go!

3. What’s one food he doesn’t like?
Liver.Durian.Any food I like extremely, he doesn't like!!We are opposite.

4. You go out to the bar. What does he order?Any kind of beer!?Favorite any thing that is smooth and not Tiger.

5. Where did he go to high school?
ACS

6. What size shoe does he wear?

10? Am I right?

7. If he was to collect anything, what would it be?

He loves comics in the past and now he collects a lot of manga and animations CDs. He is a super huge fan of Fantasy books. He has a huge collection of it,some part of it...i have resold them on ebay because they were taking too much space when we were in the states. Am I mean or not??hehhe

8. What is his favorite type of sandwich?

Ramy burger??heheh and anything that is huge with meat to fill his big appetite.No pickle and not much cheese especially goat cheese and blue cheese.

9. What would this person eat every day if he could?

Pasta and any kind of flavored rice!

10. What is his favourite cereal?

cornflakes with raisins?

11. What would he never wear?

He is pretty open to wearing anything but not a dress,g-string or tight briefs.Hahha

12. What is his favourite sports team?

Liverpool

13. Who will he vote for?

Secret.

14. Who is his best friend?

I guess me ...Hahaha

15. What is something you do that he wishes you wouldn’t do?

Getting messy and unorganised or getting moody once in a blue moon

16. How many cities/countries has he lived in?

Singapore,America

17. What is his heritage?
Hainanese like me!!!Yeah

18. You bake him a cake for his birthday; what kind of cake?

I never bake him a cake on his birthday.Hhehehe but I bake cakes on a regular basis. Betty crocker chocolate,butter ,carrot and lots of muffins and cookies...all those that are fast and speedy to do...hehehhe

19. Did he play sports in high school?
Soccer,basketball,and did i tell u he is a dragonboater when he is in JC..ahhahah

20. What could he spend hours doing?
Playing games and hitting balls at golf courseHaha