Quarter 2009 reflection

I could not believe time has passed so quickly. A quarter of 2009 has passed.
My first quarter of 2009 has been pretty swarmed up in adjusting to a new role in a new organisation.A very steep learning curve with many challenging and interesting experiences to learn. One good thing about choosing a role beyond the classroom allows me to see how education itself can be a profit enterprise at a managment level.Fundementally, there must be some bottom line figures to drive all those operational costs in the school. It widens my perspective at how school operations can operate like any other commercial enterprise, hones my skills in managing people and balancing interests and expectations of bosses and peers.Something you will not get when you are just a teacher in the classroom.

I guess life has just been too much in comfort zone for the past few years. This role bears much accountability and responsibility that I need to take a change in my gears and face the true reality of life. Or probably all this while, I am just in my own little idealistic world, waiting to grow up.

Being a leader isn't easy. More so when you are in the middle management,taking orders from levels above and communicate to those that are in the ground. I take it as an opportunity which god has provided me to mould my character. Over the past few months, I saw myself constantly facing many dilemas and stumbling blocks when changes needed to be executed.Each breakdown pushes me to turn to the lord and draw upon his strength.While devil tries to put much negative thoughts in me , I realise the more i resist and rely on my strength to overcome, the more I am sucked in to this whole wave of worry and anxiety.People Politics.Man.Messy. Looking back, is pretty scary how you can be wallow in your own troubles and that your whole life centers around work and nothing else. Day and night,nothing but work. No workout, no socialisation,no grooming, no meals.Terrible.

Balancing life and work truely is not easy. But I realise how you can achieve that when you focus on the lord. Peace and joy flows through him. The holy spririt reveals to you bigger things and bigger perspectives. The holy spirit tells you to cast all your burdens on him and that the battle is of the lord and not yours. You learn to let go ,slowly and increasingly. Painful,not easy.However at the end of the day, when you triumphant over eveything, you know your lord has been with you all this while and that you would not have walk through it without HIM.

Things to be thankful despite the terrible working conditions.My in-laws who have been ever so supportive with all their good meals ,listening ears to my rantings, bearing with my sulky faces everyday. My beloved husband who has his own share of worries and burdens but trying his best to make me happy, his daily chauffering to and fro the work place.Finally, my own realization of how hard and harsh BB's work can be in the finance sector and reminder for myself to be more patient and gentle with him. In terms of work, i am thankful for lessons learnt to be a better leader. I think one needs to be able to clearly define the mission and vision of the organisation and communicate to his people. A leader needs to be confident, level headed, organised, have integrity, ready to take blame and shield whatever went wrong, caring and respecful to his people.

Well I am glad is all over and ready to move on to greener pastures.The rest of 2009 will continue to be challenging in this economic downturn but I know I have a god who is bigger than all these. Staying faithful and trusting his providence in my life.Somethings I want to get it going in other areas of my life in the next quarter.

1. Start serving in a ministry /find a cellgroup to join for married couples
2. Sign up for yoga lesson once a week
3. Start some teaching lessons in RC with my cousin.