health has been failing me and i dislike the feeling of it.It was not easy to keep yourself perky when you feel weak in spirit. At this moment of time, my human fresh will lament and groan and i am so used to wallow in self pity. Nevertheless, i consciously try to remind myself that " i am healed in the lord."
I am feeling a bit down but not down exactly...partly...just the sickness just dampen my spirit. I try to be strong admist the whole series of thin gs that are upon my shoulders.not major issues though, if you give a second thought about it.Took a half day off and dragged myself back home in that super scorching weather ...my head spinned yet i have to make my way back. i asked the lord:"what do you ahve for me in my life?"
Planning marriage, taking on more responsbilities at work...but somehow human can never feel satisfied...i feel a lack..probably in my spiritual life.I always wanted to serve the lord. I ofetn ask "god what do you have for me in my life? what is your will and plan for me?" "is my calling in teaching?"I think i have not been talking to you lately. i put work in priority,i put all my worries above you recently. i realised i have not been talking to you sufficiently which explains why i am feeling abit empty now. I realised my deep and secure relationship with you is my biggest joy in my life. Nothing more but just resting in you and enjoying that peace and joy.
I ahve been caught by work,shelfing my personal time with you.How important is that i realise?Reading Frances' entry encouraged me. When was the last time i have prayed and relied so hard on you? I remember the feeling. It was rejuvenating,rejoicing even though the process was tough. I yearn to expereince it again
A thought came to my mind.MISSION TRIP. Lord, i have a desire for along time and i pray that you will put me on one where i will bless the people i came upon. i did not know the thought came popping up to me. i looked at the work nature now. it did not seemed possible and lord ,you know my heartmost desire, to teach your words to children, to serve in your ministry. I always wonder and pray that you will open my eyes to my gifts. I see the process now as a path towards a greater mission you have for me. i know one day, you will lay it out for me and i do not need to worry about tommorow.
I love what i am doing now. I thank you. But most importantly each day, i want to know i am glorifying you.work has not allowed me to worshipp you on SUnday . But i believe you will bless me with greater things. i want to keep close to you and submit my prayers to you.
I pray that will be gentle in my heart, slow in wrath and anger and be a good listener.
Open my heart and my communcaition to be patient
Wednesday, March 08, 2006
Tuesday, March 07, 2006
As I chanced upon yo
As I chanced upon you that night,
Behold , you are a beautiful creation of god
Caring and gentle, you cushion my sadness
Dearest to my heart where your name shall stay
Ever and never will I
Find someone else,
Greater and wonderful just like you.
Happiness is all I want to give to you,
Ignite the joy that comes from heaven.
Jotting my little sweet thoughts for you,
Keep my mind heart ,spirit and
Love to be pure and faithful.
Merrily merrily merrily;
Never and ever will I change.
Only one will
Perpetuate forever,
Quiescent and unchangable
Ronald is thy thee.
Selfless and unconditional
That’s my love I declared
Unity usurp my heart string to yours
Votary is my name
With angels and fairies hand in hand
Xilarating my love to you day by day
Your soul is now I feel all the time
Zoe and Zealous is my love.
Raine
3 March 2006
Behold , you are a beautiful creation of god
Caring and gentle, you cushion my sadness
Dearest to my heart where your name shall stay
Ever and never will I
Find someone else,
Greater and wonderful just like you.
Happiness is all I want to give to you,
Ignite the joy that comes from heaven.
Jotting my little sweet thoughts for you,
Keep my mind heart ,spirit and
Love to be pure and faithful.
Merrily merrily merrily;
Never and ever will I change.
Only one will
Perpetuate forever,
Quiescent and unchangable
Ronald is thy thee.
Selfless and unconditional
That’s my love I declared
Unity usurp my heart string to yours
Votary is my name
With angels and fairies hand in hand
Xilarating my love to you day by day
Your soul is now I feel all the time
Zoe and Zealous is my love.
Raine
3 March 2006
Monday, February 20, 2006
confirmed photoshoots schedule
the following schedule has been confirmed for us:
April 10th:gown fitting for me at 2pm.gowns selection for studio shots
May 9th: after your rest for a day.is your fitting for your shoots and also confirmation of my gown. i need to wear and let you see.
May 12th: Vesak day and public holiday.Actual day studio shoots. So get ourself ready for that. Good complexion and stuff like that.
May 14th: Actual ROM.Get pretty and handsome for that day.
May 15th--May 27: Developof photos for both of us to choose before you leave
.it seemed very rush but no choice.
Will keep you informed. Meanwhile eat well,rest well and build well
April 10th:gown fitting for me at 2pm.gowns selection for studio shots
May 9th: after your rest for a day.is your fitting for your shoots and also confirmation of my gown. i need to wear and let you see.
May 12th: Vesak day and public holiday.Actual day studio shoots. So get ourself ready for that. Good complexion and stuff like that.
May 14th: Actual ROM.Get pretty and handsome for that day.
May 15th--May 27: Developof photos for both of us to choose before you leave
.it seemed very rush but no choice.
Will keep you informed. Meanwhile eat well,rest well and build well
Saturday, February 18, 2006
Be brave
god told me that whaever i do, i have to do accordingly to whatever is said in the bible,most importantly is not against my conscience. I must be bold and open about what i am doing.
Friday, February 10, 2006
God heals me
This is amazing as the word of god is being spread forth. Frances, i am also every encouraged by what you wrote. god definitely has played agreat role in each and everyone of our life. I am very touched by what you and angela have written. beofre yesterday, i am contemplating if i should have written n entry as well. I am pretty reserved about this. i keep blogs but nobody reads except myself and sometimes Ronald.
It encourages me when i know that we are counting on the lord for every little thing in our life. everyday, when we are stress or when we are feeling that we cannot do the job anymore, i will just tell god to lead me . Someitmes, i feel i cannot hear him like what angela said, sometimes i feel his presence very strongly. I frequently asked myself if the lord is talking to me or am I talking to myself. Some times i am in doubt. But I grow stronger each time i over come uncertainty,difficulties in life. God operates in a miraculous way!!!!He does nto gives us direct answer so that we can learn to submit ourselves to him,ultimately knowing that what we have actuallie came from him and nobody else.He thought me "patience"!!!What a great lesson. All this while, i learn to be patient .to lay aside my desires and faithfully waiting for the lord's answers to my prayers. SOme have come true and some have not.But i continue to place my trust in him that he has a greater plan for me.
You guyz know it has been a dream for me to work overseas. And two years back after we came back from YNP, i actually have a chance to work over there and i mean two opportunities. that was a temptation placed by the devil. Luckily that time , i ahve a christian friend who guided me through my confusion and made me realise what most important is my family then. And they need me. I thank god for that wisdom implanted in me. And now i continue to give praises to the lord for what i have today. If i have gone to the states, i will not meet someone whom i am going to spend the rest of my life with. i always think that is god's perfect timing. he guides me to be in a job which i can do well and of course most importantly be delightful in whatever i am doing everyday. I have doubts once in a while, like moving on to a new job but i cast that in the name of jesus. Deep within my heart ,i truely believes what he has for me will be the best.As long as we have a heart for him, he will hear our prayers and guide us along.
I also want to share with you guyz something personal in my life. This is the greatest healing i received from god. SOme of you maynot have heard it.But some of you have. AS i am writing this, i ask god for courage. While i was in YNP, my mum has actuallie passed away two years back due to breast cancer. I never felt he family was completed because Mum played such an important role in my life. there is always something missing and i always appear evasive when someone asked me about her. I do not know how to answer that question. Everyone is strong in the family but i guess everyone is trying to act strong.i remember that time when i am knowing god,god told me that she is watching me from somewhere. god knows that i am missing her and his love touches me greatly!!!!!God healed my sadness and emptiness of a loss of love one. He filled me with love and courage to face the world with an open heart. I never forgot how he touches me by sending great friends like you girls in my life.Definitely,the crusaders as well. just wanna tell you all that gals brought so much joy during then and has helped me overcome a great barrier in my life.
Till now, i still thank god that i am breaking this piece of newes to you gals. I belive god has a greater purpose for us to share our testimonies over here. God has his timing!!!Is always perfect and is always for a greater cause. I believe angela god will continue to lead your way for you...telli..u as well.WE never know how mighty he is until we expereince his grace in our life.Praise him always,in times of joy and more importantly in times of difficulties as well. The flesh finds it hard to do that but with the strength of the lord, all things which are impossible in the man are possible with the lord.
I love you gals ,definitely frens which are worth to
It encourages me when i know that we are counting on the lord for every little thing in our life. everyday, when we are stress or when we are feeling that we cannot do the job anymore, i will just tell god to lead me . Someitmes, i feel i cannot hear him like what angela said, sometimes i feel his presence very strongly. I frequently asked myself if the lord is talking to me or am I talking to myself. Some times i am in doubt. But I grow stronger each time i over come uncertainty,difficulties in life. God operates in a miraculous way!!!!He does nto gives us direct answer so that we can learn to submit ourselves to him,ultimately knowing that what we have actuallie came from him and nobody else.He thought me "patience"!!!What a great lesson. All this while, i learn to be patient .to lay aside my desires and faithfully waiting for the lord's answers to my prayers. SOme have come true and some have not.But i continue to place my trust in him that he has a greater plan for me.
You guyz know it has been a dream for me to work overseas. And two years back after we came back from YNP, i actually have a chance to work over there and i mean two opportunities. that was a temptation placed by the devil. Luckily that time , i ahve a christian friend who guided me through my confusion and made me realise what most important is my family then. And they need me. I thank god for that wisdom implanted in me. And now i continue to give praises to the lord for what i have today. If i have gone to the states, i will not meet someone whom i am going to spend the rest of my life with. i always think that is god's perfect timing. he guides me to be in a job which i can do well and of course most importantly be delightful in whatever i am doing everyday. I have doubts once in a while, like moving on to a new job but i cast that in the name of jesus. Deep within my heart ,i truely believes what he has for me will be the best.As long as we have a heart for him, he will hear our prayers and guide us along.
I also want to share with you guyz something personal in my life. This is the greatest healing i received from god. SOme of you maynot have heard it.But some of you have. AS i am writing this, i ask god for courage. While i was in YNP, my mum has actuallie passed away two years back due to breast cancer. I never felt he family was completed because Mum played such an important role in my life. there is always something missing and i always appear evasive when someone asked me about her. I do not know how to answer that question. Everyone is strong in the family but i guess everyone is trying to act strong.i remember that time when i am knowing god,god told me that she is watching me from somewhere. god knows that i am missing her and his love touches me greatly!!!!!God healed my sadness and emptiness of a loss of love one. He filled me with love and courage to face the world with an open heart. I never forgot how he touches me by sending great friends like you girls in my life.Definitely,the crusaders as well. just wanna tell you all that gals brought so much joy during then and has helped me overcome a great barrier in my life.
Till now, i still thank god that i am breaking this piece of newes to you gals. I belive god has a greater purpose for us to share our testimonies over here. God has his timing!!!Is always perfect and is always for a greater cause. I believe angela god will continue to lead your way for you...telli..u as well.WE never know how mighty he is until we expereince his grace in our life.Praise him always,in times of joy and more importantly in times of difficulties as well. The flesh finds it hard to do that but with the strength of the lord, all things which are impossible in the man are possible with the lord.
I love you gals ,definitely frens which are worth to
Sunday, February 05, 2006
Things i i need to do
hi babyface,
finally is the weekend....have been waiting for it for so long ...need a break and i am thinking there are so many things to do...first of all ,i must think of getting some form of exercises have been so fat recently...
this week, i need to think about our wedding preparation..:
-start calling pastor and liase with ncc about solemisation
-print out the form from the website
-check out sentosa venue,confirm with them the date and everything and of course get consent from your parents and sister and my father.
-find someone to go with me to look at wedding bands (ask abt cartier and walk in to those which have 50 % off)
-resize my ring together with elvin-check out some bridal gowns shops with hoon lan if possible next week.- call up some bridal shops....
here is a link which you can check out some of the photos..veyr nice...
i am thinking of doing overseas photography..maybe a bit too expensive...that is why maybe we should cut down on ROM..i think should spend on photography coz that is when you will capture the beautiful moments in your life...what do you think
i will forward you a wedding schedule which we have to keep in mind...probably also just be aware of the things we should keep in mind.
issit possible to confrim when we can have our big day in 2007?????do you think we can sort of confirm the approximate period..so that we can do the following:
-source for places and look for the venue
-book it if possible
-bridal package
Personal things which i need to get done:
1) decide and pray if i want to join a NCC cell group or the bible study course on Samuel in Acts
2)Call and book my driving test tommorow.very important for me to pick up this skill coz is one of the survival tools. though i have fears about it. i shall try to over come it.
3)follow up on tennis lessons with frens
4) Be a good soul and organise valentine day outing in group for frances,maggie,
Work related issues
-retype my planning sheet
-plan out the april sheet
-dots programme next week
-sharing session for the next two weeks.
-complete the flash cards
finally is the weekend....have been waiting for it for so long ...need a break and i am thinking there are so many things to do...first of all ,i must think of getting some form of exercises have been so fat recently...
this week, i need to think about our wedding preparation..:
-start calling pastor and liase with ncc about solemisation
-print out the form from the website
-check out sentosa venue,confirm with them the date and everything and of course get consent from your parents and sister and my father.
-find someone to go with me to look at wedding bands (ask abt cartier and walk in to those which have 50 % off)
-resize my ring together with elvin-check out some bridal gowns shops with hoon lan if possible next week.- call up some bridal shops....
here is a link which you can check out some of the photos..veyr nice...
i am thinking of doing overseas photography..maybe a bit too expensive...that is why maybe we should cut down on ROM..i think should spend on photography coz that is when you will capture the beautiful moments in your life...what do you think
i will forward you a wedding schedule which we have to keep in mind...probably also just be aware of the things we should keep in mind.
issit possible to confrim when we can have our big day in 2007?????do you think we can sort of confirm the approximate period..so that we can do the following:
-source for places and look for the venue
-book it if possible
-bridal package
Personal things which i need to get done:
1) decide and pray if i want to join a NCC cell group or the bible study course on Samuel in Acts
2)Call and book my driving test tommorow.very important for me to pick up this skill coz is one of the survival tools. though i have fears about it. i shall try to over come it.
3)follow up on tennis lessons with frens
4) Be a good soul and organise valentine day outing in group for frances,maggie,
Work related issues
-retype my planning sheet
-plan out the april sheet
-dots programme next week
-sharing session for the next two weeks.
-complete the flash cards
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